To do something well you have to like it. To do something that's worth your time, you have to love it. It's not as easy as it sounds, doing what you love is a lot more complicated than you think. Even figuring out what you love is a hard task. As for me, I have hard times trying to figure out what's best for me. Sometimes, I get confused when people tell me their opinion and tell me that they're right and I should think that way too. Then I get persuaded and start thinking, "Oh, that makes sense," and start to think like them when I should be creating my own opinion to things. And sometimes I feel like I need to follow everyone else's heart in order to "fit in," when it should be the opposite. So I have decided to "Follow My Heart." Cliche? It's a simple statement, yet so complicated. Most of us struggle with this--forming an opinion, following our own heart. There are so many ideas that float around in my head, topics that are debated, and controversial issues that are discussed. I need to have a solid basis for my opinion on these topics, my very own voice of opinion in order to follow my heart, my dreams. It gets so confusing when it comes to figuring out what it is that I absolutely love. I'm still learning, figuring out what it is that keeps me alive. Then I came across this encouraging message I got from a good friend of mine a couple of weeks ago when I was trying to decide whether I wanted to transfer or not: "I know that you will make the right decision for yourself no matter what. Some people view following your heart as a weakness but I see it as a strength to follow something that is so uncertain. I love you. Sweet dreams." I haven't deleted this message, and I don't plan to. I look at it time to time when I'm discouraged, and it gives me comfort, and courage to get back up again and keep following something that is so unsure.. After all, "everything happens for a reason."
Now I'll turn my head to Life Drawing.. I had an incredibly hard time drawing a male model on Friday. It was really hard for me to see the "egg" and other muscles. I find it easier to draw a female than a male model. This is definitely a challenge for me. They seem to look a lot different than the ones of the female model's. I feel that I draw women better than I draw men, because I'm more familiar with the female body, my own body. I think a female form is a far more interesting subject because of the curvy, flowy outer lines.